Confused. What’s Next?

This year is ending in a way that I never could have imagined nor planned for. I truly spent so much of my time thinking about us as a unit that I did not even think about the ways in which Jerrica would move through 2020 as an individual. Because I am so lost, I felt is would be best to put into writing the things that I want to happen and the things that need to happen in this upcoming year.

I need to release the hold that trauma has on me.

I want to travel. A lot.

I need to live a healthier lifestyle and I want to lose weight.

I need to let go of the idea of needing someone to be whole.

I want to read a lot more.

I need to let go of the constant searching for more. I need to be intentionally present.

I want to explore Austin more. Trails. Restaurants. Live Music. Comedy shows.

I need to get to know myself a lot more.

I want to get more tattoos.

I need to learn how to better express my pain.

I want to express myself more artistically.

I need to start expressing gratitude daily.

I need to stop conditioning my worth. My worth shouldn’t exist under guidelines.

I want to find a community in……?

I want to go back to school or at least be in some sort of learning environment.

I want to laugh more.

I want to relearn Spanish.

I need to see my friends and family a lot more.

I need healing from…?

I want to do a 3 month cleanse.

I want to feel the freedom of being able to make mistakes.